Hello! so, okay, yesterday I was going to a gal meetup. But…I didn’t go. I don’t know why. I made myself ready, put on make-up and everything. but I just couldn’t step outside. I guess it was just one of those days.
I think it has something to do with my new haircut. Yes, I got a new haircut. And frankly, I’m starting to get really upset with my hairdresser. Because yet again it has turned out.. not good. I know it’s probably my fault for not explaining properly (although I did bring a picture of what I wanted it to look like o_O) It feels just as bad as the last time I had a haircut at that place. It’s too short. I haven’t even dared to try to put in hair extensions. I’m so scared that I won’t be able to wear them… Haha, silly me. But I can’t help it. I get all paralyzed when I feel ugly (who doesn’t?). I can’t think, speak or do anything. And I definitley can’t be around people. When I try to be social I’m always thinking like “what would normal Erika do in this situation? what should I say to seem normal? hmm… oh shit I forgot to say something!” It’s silly. ^^;;
But thank god for my wig! I don’t know what I would do without it. I probably would just stay inside until my hair grew back! haha. Anyway, this is what I was going to wear for the meetup yesterday: