Hello everyone. I’m sorry I haven’t been posting for a while. A lot of things has happened and I’m trying to keep up… But I’m weak.. I feel like I’m about to break down. Again. Just the thought of having to go through the procedure with doctors, psychologists, therapists, and a daily dose of pills again… No. I won’t go that far again.
I’m sorry for complaining. I know there are people having a much worse reality than me. I know that. But I’m just… weak. I know I’m really lucky because I have a caring family and a wonderful boyfriend who would gladly carry me when I’m too weak to stand up on my own… I know that. But the truth is, there really are no one else who can save you from yourself. except yourself. and I’m weak. it’s frustrating.
Anyway. I’ll try to start blogging again when I’m feeling better. I’m going to a funeral next week so I’ll take it from there. After that I’ll try to figure everything out and decide what to do with everything.
I’m just so tired… There are sometimes I really wish I would have done it back then. Because back then I wasn’t thinking. But I was too naive. Maybe that was I good thing. I don’t know..